I don't think you know if you're making sense or not, either.
Regardless, the appeal of Trump seems to come at the price of other people being miserable, or distraught, or otherwise upset, on some level. If that is enjoyable for you, okay. If that is MOSTLY why you like him- because you enjoy the misery of other people- then... damn, I dunno what to say.
I still have to believe that you're cognizant enough to know that Trump is a charlatan. He's made a career of being a master bullshitter. He's not very intelligent. He's certainly not someone who really knows what he's doing, in terms of leading a country, let alone a country like the United States. Granted, "leading a country" in modern-day terms is subjective. But, those who manage to bullshit themselves into believing that he is competent are really strange. It's one thing to be enjoy his antics, or think it's funny that he's punking the system, somehow. But, you had to know that, at some point, his incompetence was going to be costly. To really believe in his leadership is fvcking dangerous. He has no leadership.